Music has always been a medium through which Eli and I connect. We don't always have the same taste in music (Slayer? Really, Eli? Really?), but we do share a passion for it, and an ability and willingness to be moved by it. Throughout our long relationship we've spoken in lyrics to one another often and made each other mixed tapes (and CDs), usually during some of the more turbulent times.

This is definitely a turbulent time. I made Eli a CD last week, and most of it is angry. It's basically a "how dare you hurt me, how stupid was I to allow you to hurt me, okay I still love you but I'm angry, okay I just still love you. but I'm ANGRY" CD. And he responded with a CD for me, one that I've been listening to for the last few days in my car. I've spent hours in the car lately!

But it seems like every song that comes on the radio is being played exclusively for me and him lately. All these sappy tweeny-bopper pop songs about hurting and getting hurt, about loving and being loved. *sigh*

And I can practically feel Seth rolling his eyes at me right about now. ;)

Anyway, I wanted to go public with this one dedication. Yes, I'm a dork. But we all already knew that, yeah?

This is for you, Eli.
You'll have to click on it to get there.

Friends and family keep asking me what's going on with me and Eli. This is what's going on. He is my husband. I am his wife. We're working on it.


Rachel said...

I never know what to write on your blog but here it is and Im done. I have treated you like shit over and again but thank you for not giving up on me. I want us to work. I need for us to work (all of us). I love U.


Eli said...

This is for you.



Rachel said...

And for you, my dear.